Representative, Senators,

Why I applied for a "Disability Scholarship" ..a while ago. An essay.

I was a straight-A-student up through eighth grade. Then ..yet another.. Trauma. This particular trauma begat a cycle of CONFIDENTIAL, from which I have received little reprieve. After nearly twenty years of riding this broken-cycle, I have finally had enough. I require Help. I am ready to Heal. I narrowly survived my last wipe-out.. I may not the next. My Child requires Both Parents.

Intelligence is not a disqualifier for Disability ..I checked, first thing.. It is, however, considered with abject Suspicion ..smart people can have real problems, too.. I was diagnosed as 'CONFIDENTIAL' at age thirteen. I have compensated for my CONFIDENTIAL dysfunctions my entire life. My potential remains incalculable ..until I can get out of my own way.. I have numerous Ideas ..going nowhere, like me.. I wish only to help people ..I believe I know how.. First, I need to get my head on straight(-ish). I require a proficient Psychologist.

CONFIDENTIAL [...] Put in proximity with more than but a few people and it becomes chaos ..and Panic.. within. [...] I am a powerful friend .."Believe me, I know how you feel".. I help people, one at a time. This is my Ability. I require the Time to Practice, hopefully such that I can attend a simple social gathering or office-scenario ..without disconcert.. and Contribute.

My former career brought out the worst of my D(igital)OCD.. Limiting my mindset to '1's and '0's is fundamentally frustrating when I firmly exist in the realm of '-1'. I do not handle Disruption well.. My former employers afforded extensive Accommodations that allowed me avoidance of coworkers, almost completely. Resultant ..as I was ever-unsupervised.. my dysfunctions grew ..unchecked.. For almost a decade I did not work a 'normal' job. I do not know how. I require vocational rehab, New Career.

I have a recurrent Crippling CONFIDENTIAL Condition ..recently resurfaced.. preventing me from doing most-anything physical ..including my former career.. for more than a short spell.. enough said. It will require Time ..and major surgery, I cannot afford.. to finally Heal.

I have issues with Memory.. Not an uncommon side effect of trauma ..it is easier to forget than relive.. I have no concept of time-passed. I forget the worst.. alongside the best. I require Memory Training.

[...] CONFIDENTIAL [...] I require Time to recover.

I need to put my past behind me ..get beyond Who I Was.. discover Who I Am. I will make Mistakes ..big ones.. This is all part of Learning. I need to be free to make these mistakes without loss of the roof over my head or the food on my table ..which I can do nothing more to prevent from slipping away.. Life, in fear of these disasters: I will not Try, Risk, Grow ..my disfortune-cycle shall persist.. I require Security.

While receiving Unemployment ..it just ended.. I made "too much" to qualify for any-other assistance. I cannot afford psychotherapy ..which might be nice.. I have gone hungry several times this past year ..gov't bureaucracy.. Creditors harass me, daily. I cannot see my distant Friends and Family ..whom I miss, love.. My Home ..which I have struggled to keep, love, refuse to lose, as long shall it be before I may procure another.. is in severe disrepair. My Child is not receiving all the Financial Support deserved, and required.

I have greater aspirations for my life than to live 'on the brink' for the rest of it. I have had more than enough experience living this way. I do not long for yet another few years of that lifestyle. However, it will be required for the Time to Heal, Practice my Ability, Learn to Contribute, Securely. This is the Intent of Social Security Disability. I humbly request the opportunity to use the program intelligently, properly, shortly.

Thank you for your (re)consideration.